Incompatible

Incompatible

You’re drowning me
By any means
Issues
Sorrows
Insecurities
Things that aren’t even as bad as they seem
The misperception of your emotions
Prevents you from thinking logically
I LOVE you
And you KNOW it
But no matter what I do or say
You constantly fish…
For negativity
I can’t take it
Your burdens run thick
Like sap from a tree
Slowly gaining
Eventually concealing
Weighing down
Hardening…
Becoming almost impossible to pierce
Without shattering
You!
When we get along
Happiness is undeniably present
It shines brighter than the sun
And just like night and day
When we disagree…
You forget that there ever was a sun.
Uncertainty…
Runs deep in your veins
Constantly feeling attacked
Every word is an insult
Making it difficult for me to speak
Walking on egg shells
I’m at a loss for words
I lose desire to speak
Tension on the rise
Rage begins surfacing
My mind drifts from restriction
Now…
I lash out when I speak
Roles reverse
Now your feelings are hurt
And I become the agitator
But even in the midst
Of my so called harsh words
Degrading is something I’ll never be
I don’t tear you down
You just like to think things through and through
Until you convince yourself
That you’re being attacked
Abused…
That’s not me
It starts with you
But when you see red
There’s nothing I can do
Just know you’re drowning me in your sorrows
Makes me feel
Incompatible

© 2013 Craig Watson

Fear

Fear

Fear is foreign
When you are around
And now that I know and have you
My only fear in life
Is to lose you
Therefore…
I’d do anything to keep you
There’s no end
To the rage that would overcome me
In order to assure your wellbeing
There is no darkness too deep
Death holds no weight
For the depths I’d go for you
You have the core of my heart
You say the word
And I’ll see to it
That whatever it is
Gets done.
I’m infatuated
I desire to please you
You heighten every sense in my body
I feel in control
In every action I make
Until you look at me of course
Or touch me
Especially when you touch me
That control …
Is given to you
You control me
And I trust you with that power over me
A powerful woman
You’re the mastermind
Behind my actions
You rule me with everything you do
Compatible in every way
You make me feel invincible
Any task can be overcame
Any obstacle can be completed
As long as you’re with me
There is no fearing
Anything

© 2013 Craig Watson

Tease

Tease

I want it BADLY
I make it known
And you resist it.
You taunt me with your words
Insinuating you want it
You’re not afraid to show it
You speak on it with ease
As if you mapped it out in your head
And Me…
As thirsty as I am
Respond
Taking it a step further…
And stimulate you mentally
And you impassively…
Ignore me
No response
For days…
Leaving me feeling
Incorrigible
And out of nowhere
A Response
Only to satisfy your scandalous itch
And then once again…
Gone with the breeze.
You love the control
Yet you fear the reality…
You don’t want to feel guilt…
I don’t want the shame
But how can you not entertain these palpitations
Occurring in our most sensitive loins
The throbbing
The heavy heart beats
This passionate mental storm
Calling for a torrential rain
I know I own your thoughts
I want to make them my own
I want to enter your body
I want to taste your rain

© 2013 Craig Watson

A Man

A Man

You feel it
I conceal it
No proof it’s even there
But the feeling is so apparent
You can’t stray from the thought
It has taken control of you
I love you
I just don’t know how to explain it
Just…
Looking for the imperfect time
Because no time
Is ever a good one?
I don’t want to do this
I don’t want to hurt anyone
And that fact…
Stops me dead in my tracks
Disappointment is inevitable
Broken hearted
Prayers for strength
Because I feel I lack
The necessary courage
To speak
I’m weak…
So I continue to sit and wither away
Rotting from the inside
Pretending to be something I’m not
Whether it’s my happiness
Whether it’s me just being me
I’m not free…
Caged…
For the benefit of the smiles of others
And in the process I’m losing myself
Who am I?
I no longer know
All I know
Is I am a man
An imperfect man
I would like to think I’m supportive
But in the midst of supporting
My support
Is dwindling beneath me
A husband
A provider
A protector…
It’s said that a woman’s job
Is never done
But being a man that takes on so much
I can vouch that it’s the same for us
And I don’t even know who I am
I’m lost in a world of complacency
A set schedule
To do what’s required of me
And if I’m a second too late
The world falls off its axis
I’ve lost me
Jaded

© 2012 Craig Watson

Melancholy

Melancholy 

I woke up with excitement
High hopes…
Of seeing your beautiful face
Only to come to the realization
That you’re not here today
And you haven’t been for some time
Breathing just became a little harder
Another 1000 thoughts
My mind can’t help but to wander
Wander in places
I dread going
But I can’t deter my own thoughts
I miss you tremendously.
Tossing and turning
Both day and night
In the brief moments of sleep
I vision you here by my side
But it does no justice
Hence…
I wake up a little more depressed
I try to drink it off
But it just enhances the stress
My highs suddenly
Become my lows
A fast track
Back to reality
Left with a heavy heart
Missing you entirely

© 2012 Craig Watson

Danger Zone

Danger Zone

Erase these thoughts
Banish these thoughts
Because they…
Are no good for me
Temptation is haunting me
Making it hard for me to be around you
You’re untouchable
And you need to remain that way…
Because if I were to touch
I’m sure it would change everything
Your beauty becomes more mesmerizing
Every time that I look at you
When I feel our eyes are about to connect
I force myself
To look away
God forbid
I actually look into your eyes
I don’t know what will happen
The passion that may come over me.
I want you…
And I feel
The only way to do away with these feelings
These urges…
Is to have you!
But there’s a possibility that
I’ll never be able to
Dismiss you…
Is this
Self-destruction?
I want to believe your feeling the same way
But either way
The situation is flawed
All because we have a mutual friend

© 2012 Craig Watson

Torture

Torture

What you and I have
Is torture
It’s beautiful
But tearing me apart
I need you completely
Not just on occasion
I want to be exclusively yours
Not just a convenience
This is a nightmare
I’m either deeply in love
Or deeply depressed
Because I want u near
And you’re nowhere in sight
This isn’t healthy
This can’t be life!
Run away with me
Jazz filled nights
Star lit skies
Spoken word
Flows from my Lips
As if I was destined to be heard
Not a nerve in sight
Because my sight
Is consumed by you
My natural high!
The most wonderful
The most beautiful
Quite the vision
I’m in love
Nothing exist
In your presence
Nothing matters
Only you!
You’re amazing
Your touch
Calms my storm
You are the peace
Within my nightmare

© 2012 Craig Watson