Darkness
I’ve always been a child of light
Now nothing but darkness,
Is stalking within my shadows
Leaving me with an unpredictable life
Still…
And always…
Been a leader.
Never been one to follow
But it’s like I can’t even sleep anymore
Because I’m paranoid of what may happen tomorrow
I know I need help
But I keep running as I think I’ll obtain it
And what will my outcome be ?
Praying not death.
I know it’s wrong
But for some reason…
I keep going back to it
The pressure is driving me crazy
What made me look into this lifestyle ?
Frantically watching my back…
Hearing crazed sounds and frightening cry’s
Waking up in cold sweats
Because of deterred dreams
Seeing myself in other people’s shoes
Most…
Not even standing on both feet
My tears are grazing these words as I speak
But that’s not enough to stop my pain
What happened to my mind…
Why did I let it corrupt my peace
© 2011 Craig Watson
Mr. Watson 
This is a very deep honest poem. Just know that whatever it is you are facing, battling, struggling to pull away from God is able to deliver you from it. Seeing that you’ve always been a child of light that tells me that their is hope if you only believe.
But hey maybe you’re just being deep, after all you did say you don’t just write about your own experiences but others also.
Question when you say seeing yourself in other’s shoes most not on the ground do you men not living?
Yeah this is a personal one! Not something I’m currently going through … But u can say I overcame it! A bit wiser now… Thank you 🙂 Glad u enjoyed!
I’m glad to hear you’ve over came it! Now go on and let your light shine, child of light!
I thought of this last night as I attempted to sleep
Nice! And ur thoughts were?
I was having a hard time falling asleep having night sweats of my own lol…overall it made me think about some odd happenings in my life as of late. Im a very observant person that likes a bit of mystery so this poem is a bit thought provoking.
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A facinatingly frantic read. I write things similar to this at times. It’s like a release valve. Oftentimes the things I write are of things pent up in my soul for a very long time. Excellent job, and I can obviously relate!
I’m glad to read you’re not going through it now, although it’s a place we all pass through from time to time…part of the growing process, I guess. I’m really good at worry and usually find I need to get back in the present moment and trust in God to find my sanity again. Good job, Craig.
Dang… Very nice! And intense!
Thank you!
Definitely profound.
Glad to hear you are not experiencing these feelings now.
Thanks for sharing such a personal story.
I love how you bared yourself and your pain so honestly, that makes for a beautiful and deeply affecting poem. I hope you find your peace again. A while ago I wrote an article on my blog (absurdly long) about how to stop seeking other’s approval it proved therapeutic for me
Thanks! I’ll check it out…
Your are different frim what I am, but still it is very interesting to know how you think and which thoughts do cross your mind. Also you have a good sense of language, if I can explain what I mean 🙂
WOW ! A great big wow….excellently presented thoughts…Thanks for share…….
we all have our fears, time and experience teach us how to handle them .. I’m glad you’re not in such state now! Lovely writing!
The last line says a lot. Knowledge is not corruption, it’s a tool. Just keep in mind that a hammer is not a multipurpose tool. smiles…
True words..fear is the word that cannot be ignored .I too have fears that cannot be explained in words and your poem made me think twice.Well written .
Thank u! I really appreciate it !
This piece really speaks to me, I think it’s that currently I’m dealing with those very thoughts with work and attempting to weigh the options – thanks for putting a voice to the inner dialogue
Thank u! I appreciate the comment ! Things tend to work out for the best … Stay strong !
honest, many can relate to it, well done.
Thank u !
Deep soul searching in this. Excellent. You’ll find mine here.
Thank u 🙂 Glad u enjoyed !
wow very eerie and very spooky how this has happened to you. I am glad that you over came this and can write about it now. Great poem so well done and so deep
http://gatelesspassage.com/2011/10/30/the-witch-is-transformed/
enjoyed it.
it speaks to me.
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Thank you ! Glad u enjoyed !
“what happened to my mind
why did I let it corrupt my peace”
Never let darkness suffocate your soul.
Excellent write!
Thank u.