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Incompatible

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Incompatible

You’re drowning me
By any means
Issues
Sorrows
Insecurities
Things that aren’t even as bad as they seem
The misperception of your emotions
Prevents you from thinking logically
I LOVE you
And you KNOW it
But no matter what I do or say
You constantly fish…
For negativity
I can’t take it
Your burdens run thick
Like sap from a tree
Slowly gaining
Eventually concealing
Weighing down
Hardening…
Becoming almost impossible to pierce
Without shattering
You!
When we get along
Happiness is undeniably present
It shines brighter than the sun
And just like night and day
When we disagree…
You forget that there ever was a sun.
Uncertainty…
Runs deep in your veins
Constantly feeling attacked
Every word is an insult
Making it difficult for me to speak
Walking on egg shells
I’m at a loss for words
I lose desire to speak
Tension on the rise
Rage begins surfacing
My mind drifts from restriction
Now…
I lash out when I speak
Roles reverse
Now your feelings are hurt
And I become the agitator
But even in the midst
Of my so called harsh words
Degrading is something I’ll never be
I don’t tear you down
You just like to think things through and through
Until you convince yourself
That you’re being attacked
Abused…
That’s not me
It starts with you
But when you see red
There’s nothing I can do
Just know you’re drowning me in your sorrows
Makes me feel
Incompatible

© 2013 Craig Watson

Outcast

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Outcast

You of all people
Judged me before I had the chance to explain
It hurts.
You of all people
Cast the first stone
For all of my sins
Did you 4get
That you were there
When you introduced me to this madness.
Addiction
Burden!
Now you turn your back on me
Like I’m beneath the very ground you walk on
It hurts…
Because I thought
You…
Of all people
Would understand.
Now you just walk away
Leaving only my footprints in the sand!
Alone
Cast away…
Left to battle these demons alone
Nothing a pill can’t handle
Take me away from this….
Only to come down…
And deal with the same madness.
Come back to me
Let’s take this struggle on together
I’m lost without you!
Smiles no longer caress my face
Just dark thoughts
Invade my space!
Come back to me…
I’m lost without you

© 2012 Craig Watson

Why Did I Hold Back

Why Did I Hold Back

What I wouldn’t give
To let her know
What exactly it is…
That I’m feeling inside.
Afraid of her reaction.
Afraid she’ll dispose of my pride.
Battling the voices of courage and fear in my head
Is making me want to keep what I want to say…
All in my mind.
Time is of the essence…
She won’t be in my presence forever.
& Silence isn’t beneficial…
But my nerves wont let me rush this.
I don’t want to approach her and my words are distorted.
Where she’ll just brush me off
And I’ll remain nothing but a thought…
If that!
I know I have to speak up
Before it’s too late
And she’s gone out of my life
And I’ll never find out her name.
Only if I came up with this concept
A minute sooner
Now I’ll never see her again
If I do…
It’ll be a coincidence.
Why did I hold back?

© 2011 Craig Watson

Darkness

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Darkness

I’ve always been a child of light
Now nothing but darkness,
Is stalking within my shadows
Leaving me with an unpredictable life
Still…
And always…
Been a leader.
Never been one to follow
But it’s like I can’t even sleep anymore
Because I’m paranoid of what may happen tomorrow
I know I need help
But I keep running as I think I’ll obtain it
And what will my outcome be ?
Praying not death.
I know it’s wrong
But for some reason…
I keep going back to it
The pressure is driving me crazy
What made me look into this lifestyle ?
Frantically watching my back…
Hearing crazed sounds and frightening cry’s
Waking up in cold sweats
Because of deterred dreams
Seeing myself in other people’s shoes
Most…
Not even standing on both feet
My tears are grazing these words as I speak
But that’s not enough to stop my pain
What happened to my mind…
Why did I let it corrupt my peace

© 2011 Craig Watson