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Incompatible

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Incompatible

You’re drowning me
By any means
Issues
Sorrows
Insecurities
Things that aren’t even as bad as they seem
The misperception of your emotions
Prevents you from thinking logically
I LOVE you
And you KNOW it
But no matter what I do or say
You constantly fish…
For negativity
I can’t take it
Your burdens run thick
Like sap from a tree
Slowly gaining
Eventually concealing
Weighing down
Hardening…
Becoming almost impossible to pierce
Without shattering
You!
When we get along
Happiness is undeniably present
It shines brighter than the sun
And just like night and day
When we disagree…
You forget that there ever was a sun.
Uncertainty…
Runs deep in your veins
Constantly feeling attacked
Every word is an insult
Making it difficult for me to speak
Walking on egg shells
I’m at a loss for words
I lose desire to speak
Tension on the rise
Rage begins surfacing
My mind drifts from restriction
Now…
I lash out when I speak
Roles reverse
Now your feelings are hurt
And I become the agitator
But even in the midst
Of my so called harsh words
Degrading is something I’ll never be
I don’t tear you down
You just like to think things through and through
Until you convince yourself
That you’re being attacked
Abused…
That’s not me
It starts with you
But when you see red
There’s nothing I can do
Just know you’re drowning me in your sorrows
Makes me feel
Incompatible

© 2013 Craig Watson

A Man

A Man

You feel it
I conceal it
No proof it’s even there
But the feeling is so apparent
You can’t stray from the thought
It has taken control of you
I love you
I just don’t know how to explain it
Just…
Looking for the imperfect time
Because no time
Is ever a good one?
I don’t want to do this
I don’t want to hurt anyone
And that fact…
Stops me dead in my tracks
Disappointment is inevitable
Broken hearted
Prayers for strength
Because I feel I lack
The necessary courage
To speak
I’m weak…
So I continue to sit and wither away
Rotting from the inside
Pretending to be something I’m not
Whether it’s my happiness
Whether it’s me just being me
I’m not free…
Caged…
For the benefit of the smiles of others
And in the process I’m losing myself
Who am I?
I no longer know
All I know
Is I am a man
An imperfect man
I would like to think I’m supportive
But in the midst of supporting
My support
Is dwindling beneath me
A husband
A provider
A protector…
It’s said that a woman’s job
Is never done
But being a man that takes on so much
I can vouch that it’s the same for us
And I don’t even know who I am
I’m lost in a world of complacency
A set schedule
To do what’s required of me
And if I’m a second too late
The world falls off its axis
I’ve lost me
Jaded

© 2012 Craig Watson

Melancholy

Melancholy 

I woke up with excitement
High hopes…
Of seeing your beautiful face
Only to come to the realization
That you’re not here today
And you haven’t been for some time
Breathing just became a little harder
Another 1000 thoughts
My mind can’t help but to wander
Wander in places
I dread going
But I can’t deter my own thoughts
I miss you tremendously.
Tossing and turning
Both day and night
In the brief moments of sleep
I vision you here by my side
But it does no justice
Hence…
I wake up a little more depressed
I try to drink it off
But it just enhances the stress
My highs suddenly
Become my lows
A fast track
Back to reality
Left with a heavy heart
Missing you entirely

© 2012 Craig Watson

Hopelessness

Hopelessness

A ticking time bomb
Ready to explode
At any given moment
Just sitting
Brewing…
I’m steaming
But it’s invisible.
It only surfaces
When I’m alone.
I’m tired
Tired of screaming
Tired of not being heard
The only person
That can push the right buttons
To make it seem as if I’m being controlled
I’m mentally drained
A pounding headache arising
I need to leave
Not you…
Just from you
But it’s you
That I can’t seem to shake.
So I just deal…
Deal with you and your set ways
Talking over me
As if my points
Are pointless
You feel what you feel
So nothing else matters
Nothing seems fair
I’m trying to save face
I feel that I’m at wits end
Prove to me this isn’t a mistake

© 2012 Craig Watson

Distance

Distance

The mere touch of your hand
Makes me feel as if I’m floating
Gravity took away all stability
Destination…
Unknowing!
I find myself saying your name
Just to keep myself sane.
To not have you around whenever I desire
Makes it that more difficult…
For my sanity to be maintained.
& when you are around…
I feel my heart skip a beat.
A slight numbness throughout my body
Making me weak in the knees.
Enchantment!
The voice that sings from your lips…
Beyond pleasant.
Bringing my ears a melodic vibe.
Fidelity is never an issue…
Because the idea of maintaining your trust
Day by day I thrive.
No matter how far you are
I feel you here with me
Without a call…
I hear your whispers
I’m so far gone
I can feel you breathe on me.
The scent of your hair.
Your soft skin.
Your incredible heart.
All inspire me to stick by my words
We will never be apart…
Physically & Mentally
We have one another at heart!
There is no such thing as
Distance!

© 2011 Craig Watson

Lost and Blindsided

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Lost and Blindsided

Sometimes…
U come to that fork in the road
And ur stuck as to which way
To go
U want to make an immediate decision
However…
U’ve been lost b4!
And hesitation…
Can cause a collision
Panic and fear kick in
Causing split decisions!
The road ur on…
Unknowing!
The scenery ….
Beautiful!
Outstandingly beautiful
However…
No signs in sight!
There4 u keep going…
Blinded by all the sites!
4getting whether or not
U chose the right path!
As night falls…
Out of nowhere…
A thick fog appears!
EVERYTHING…
Becomes damaging to the eyes
Exposing feelings of regret
No signs of light in sight!
This journey is becoming a stress!
U can’t seem to find a solution
To pierce the darkness !
Ur conscience tells u to backtrack
But now time is invested…
Ur heart says…
Keep moving ahead…
And PRAY…
That this dense fog lifts
And that the road I’m on…
And the path I should be on…
Will somehow intersect !

© 2011   Craig Watson