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Melancholy

Melancholy 

I woke up with excitement
High hopes…
Of seeing your beautiful face
Only to come to the realization
That you’re not here today
And you haven’t been for some time
Breathing just became a little harder
Another 1000 thoughts
My mind can’t help but to wander
Wander in places
I dread going
But I can’t deter my own thoughts
I miss you tremendously.
Tossing and turning
Both day and night
In the brief moments of sleep
I vision you here by my side
But it does no justice
Hence…
I wake up a little more depressed
I try to drink it off
But it just enhances the stress
My highs suddenly
Become my lows
A fast track
Back to reality
Left with a heavy heart
Missing you entirely

© 2012 Craig Watson

Shattered

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Shattered

Never did I want to hurt you
You’re my world
You’re my everything
I just let worst of situations
Bring the devil out of me!
I love you
Without a doubt I do
It’s clear to see
Where this attitude will get me
And I don’t want to lose you.
I have issues…
So I’m sorry in advance
For upsetting…
Hurting you.
Negativity…
Births this I don’t give a fuck attitude…
I don’t blame you for saying you’re through
This isn’t the 1st time…
It’s all because of me
I’m the reason you’re no longer here…
It’s all because of me
I’m fucked up!
No baggage with me….
Just a lifestyle acquired in my upbringing
A rolling stone…
A way of life
No regret in leaving
It doesn’t mean I don’t love you
Because as you’ve mentioned countless times…
I love HARD!
I’m just fucked up…
It’s embedded in my heart.
I would exchange it if I could…
But I wouldn’t be the person
You fell in love with!

© 2012 Craig Watson

Darkness

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Darkness

I’ve always been a child of light
Now nothing but darkness,
Is stalking within my shadows
Leaving me with an unpredictable life
Still…
And always…
Been a leader.
Never been one to follow
But it’s like I can’t even sleep anymore
Because I’m paranoid of what may happen tomorrow
I know I need help
But I keep running as I think I’ll obtain it
And what will my outcome be ?
Praying not death.
I know it’s wrong
But for some reason…
I keep going back to it
The pressure is driving me crazy
What made me look into this lifestyle ?
Frantically watching my back…
Hearing crazed sounds and frightening cry’s
Waking up in cold sweats
Because of deterred dreams
Seeing myself in other people’s shoes
Most…
Not even standing on both feet
My tears are grazing these words as I speak
But that’s not enough to stop my pain
What happened to my mind…
Why did I let it corrupt my peace

© 2011 Craig Watson