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Incompatible

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Incompatible

You’re drowning me
By any means
Issues
Sorrows
Insecurities
Things that aren’t even as bad as they seem
The misperception of your emotions
Prevents you from thinking logically
I LOVE you
And you KNOW it
But no matter what I do or say
You constantly fish…
For negativity
I can’t take it
Your burdens run thick
Like sap from a tree
Slowly gaining
Eventually concealing
Weighing down
Hardening…
Becoming almost impossible to pierce
Without shattering
You!
When we get along
Happiness is undeniably present
It shines brighter than the sun
And just like night and day
When we disagree…
You forget that there ever was a sun.
Uncertainty…
Runs deep in your veins
Constantly feeling attacked
Every word is an insult
Making it difficult for me to speak
Walking on egg shells
I’m at a loss for words
I lose desire to speak
Tension on the rise
Rage begins surfacing
My mind drifts from restriction
Now…
I lash out when I speak
Roles reverse
Now your feelings are hurt
And I become the agitator
But even in the midst
Of my so called harsh words
Degrading is something I’ll never be
I don’t tear you down
You just like to think things through and through
Until you convince yourself
That you’re being attacked
Abused…
That’s not me
It starts with you
But when you see red
There’s nothing I can do
Just know you’re drowning me in your sorrows
Makes me feel
Incompatible

© 2013 Craig Watson

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Apprehensive

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Apprehensive

I’m apprehensive
When it comes to
Loving you
Not spooked
By possibilities of being hurt
But discouraged by
What I may possibly put you through.
I could never imagine
Loving someone like myself
My self worth has been
Diminished.
Not because of insecurity
But an emotional glitch
Something infused in my heart.
It desires so much
Then…
It desires nothing at all.
I’m smiling and breathing
Simply living
But if you listen and feel…
Nothing is beating.
The light shines from a distance
However…
The closer you get
It becomes dull.
The ultimate façade
At times
I fool myself.
Is there something wrong with me?
No one gets me….
And then there’s you!
A possible turn around???
But I’m apprehensive…
Heartache.
I may have never experienced it
But I know it exist
I may have never felt the agony
But I know the distance
That it can drive you
I’ve seen it through HER eyes
I’ve felt it through HER tears
And basically
That’s why I am here.
This is why I cater to you
This is why I attend to your
Emotional need
Because when a heart bleeds…
It’s hard to stop the bleeding
And in the same breath…
I know how to take you there
I can make you feel less than nothing
I’ve experienced this.
I can shatter your world
Where thoughts of suicide are relevant
I’ve driven people to this
I’ve learned from HIS ways
I can build you up
Only to knock you down
Causing you to never trust again.
I’ve mastered HIS ways.
I’ve developed the same mind set
This is exactly why
I’m apprehensive.

© 2012 Craig Watson

Sleepless

Sleepless

I want to tell her
I love her
All day!
But she doesn’t hear me…
Maybe she doesn’t want to hear me.
I want to kiss and caress her
Every night
But I try to engage…
& she selfishly doesn’t want to be bothered.
I have a companion
Yet I’m alone
Thoughtlessness
The worst kind of neglect
Issues I’ll never be able to understand.
No communication…
She’s always occupied.
Sleepless nights
Yearning to be with her.
Not just passion
All aspects of affection.
We’re lying next to one another
Silence fills the air
It’s freezing in my home
Yet the heat is working fine
No desire for anything
Just lying there
Expiring time
Where has the love gone
I’m lying here in disbelief
As I find myself alone
Reminiscing on our indifference
On the matter of
What’s important to ME…
Those were the things she has been saying to me…
All along!
Another love lost.

© 2012 Craig Watson

Reflect

Reflect

Am I dreaming?
The rain…
Is beating against
My adolescent mind.
It’s Dark…
I feel a chill…
Caressing my spine.
I don’t know where it’s coming from.
Screams…
Mourning…
From something unknown.
I can’t make out the cries.
Females…
I can’t be dreaming.
Wait…
I’m awake!
I’m a man!
My eyes are opened wide.
The screams…
Are from my victims.
Blood on my hands.
From crushed hearts.
And not by my doing only.
My assumed to be dream…
Are reflections of my childhood.
It started from Mom…
Then so on & so on
I guess that’s where the darkness started…
How long can this go on.

© 2011 Craig Watson

Exit Wounds

Exit Wounds

I dread hearing you say
That you’re through
You say you can no longer
Allow me
To continue to put you
In the circumstances that we’re going through.
But what exactly am I to do?
Leave…
Without warning?
“Troubles would be vague as long as we’re together”
You say.
But those troubles can’t remain vague forever…
Maybe
They’ll come out during our struggles
Definitely
During our bickering
Inevitably
During our moments of anger.
I say I love you
You say I don’t love you.
I’m acting like a stranger.
You say that…
The only way I can prove to you that I care
Is to Leave…
Without warning…
You don’t expect me to leave my responsibilities
Just to accept the consequences of a battered
Spiteful heart
But this is a DANGEROUS love
Bound to cause
Unnecessary pain
What’s the worth…
All to rekindle something
That’s meant to be apart .
Us…

© 2011 Craig Watson