Until Then

A pure soul
I feel her aura
From eons away
Damn 
Feelings are a powerful thing
People sleep to dream
I look at her 
And no matter the time of day 
I’m gone forever 
A fantasy world of my own
Placing her in every scenario 
Damn
The mind is a powerful thing
I smell her
And I’m foreign to her scent
So many sensual
Erotic thoughts
Constantly envisioning my skin
Up against her flawless skin
But deeper than that 
It’s the simplicity of her
Kind
Meek
Astonishing
All I want to do is please her
From head to toe
I want her to feel me throughout her day
I want to make her body tremble 
I want to master her thoughts 
To have a better understanding of her beautiful spirit 
Open books
So many chapters 
So many things to be written
Discussions of loneliness
Discussions of hurt 
We have yet to discuss the Joy
Shattered confidence
I want her to confess what’s broken
Attack any insecurity
And start to heal
Revive the shallow beats of her heart
So that it could possibly beat for me
For it’s safe in my hands
I want her to pour herself into me
I’ll drink with ease
No doubt
No worry
She deserves to love
And to be
Loved effortlessly

© 2022 Craig Watson

Bottled Up

Years of feelings
Bottled up
Poured out
On a cold night in November
A drink gave me the courage to express myself
By the break of dawn
All that was said…
I vaguely remember
In and out of consciousness
Speaking from a part of me
That I never tap into
A place where I’m alone
With no one to turn to
I open my eyes…
And there you are
Bringing out emotions
I can’t fully explain
Spinning out of control
You’ve opened your mind to me
You trust me
Without the thought
Of ever being disappointed
And even though disappointment has occurred in the past
It never impedes future moments
I fell in love with you
For the 100th time around
We’re inseparable
No matter the distance we create
We come right back around
Spirits on high
Feet never touching the ground
We are magnetic
For the life of me
I could never understand
Why we can’t seem to grasp it
Then it happens
Talks of life, love, and possibilities
Fast tracked down a road
Dark and gloomy
Leading to a bottomless pit
Of resentment and agony
So many chapters left open
Wounds that cut deep
No sign of closure
Just temporary relief
Inevitably bringing us closer
Typically
Your body on top of me

Pt. 2

Often we relive this moment
Details never changing from the past
Each rendezvous incredible
Knock you off your feet passion
I dwell on our last encounter
As if we’re living it in the moment
Rain beating against the window pane
My hand gripping your throat
Your body liquefying into mine
Slow
Sensual
Steady strokes
I wrap my arms around you
Massaging your sweet spot
Your pussy pulsates
Gripping
Sucking me in
Flipping you over
Now its me on top of you
Skin touching skin
I’m lost inside of you
The way you control my body
The way you move
The look in your eye
Speaks volumes
Climax approaching
Ready to erupt
I refuse to pull out
Your infatuation is my infatuation
You begged me to stay in
The true definition of erotic
Your walls grip me so tight
Draining every ounce of love
I feel your body dripping
Running down your thigh…
My thigh…
Another satisfying night
And we’re back to square one
We know what we want
We just choose to run
Fear of losing what we have
Never wanting it to diminish
So we keep each other at bay
Bottling these crazy emotions
For more unforgettable moments
Of pure ecstasy

© 2020 Craig Watson

Depth of Perfection

Petite
Sweet
My personal visual ecstasy
Created to perfection
Her flaws…
Unknown to me
She’s absolutely stunning
Ravishing
Her taste…
An explosion to my taste buds
I love opening her up with my
Tongue
A delicacy
Nothing like an acquired taste
Something you just can’t get enough of
Nothing goes to waste
So fulfilling
I frown upon limits
Because to me
They don’t exist
A true work of art
And I own it
She does what I say
She gives me what I want
Our compatibleness
Exquisite
Remarkable
Like every single kiss
Every inch of her body is mine
Sadistic
With a desire to be punished
I go to unimaginable depths
To shine light on my darkness
No point in keeping it hidden
Pain vs Pleasure
I can’t seem to pick a side
Yet darkness constantly takes over

© 2015 Craig Watson

Detached

You’re amazing in every way
And I treat you as if
I don’t worship
The very ground you walk on.
Honestly
I’m afraid of disappointing you
By exposing
My truths
So in the process…
I distance myself
Suppressing everything
From Anger to Fear
Worst of all
My connection with you.
Nothing about you
Escapes me
I haven’t forgotten a single encounter
From the moment you left my life
And returned
Leaving me breathless.
Down to our 3hr conversations
Leaving my heart racing
On a daily basis.
Each thought of you
Weighs heavy on my mind
And when I think of our created
Distance…
I sink deeper into myself.
I’m the reason
My best friend is slipping away
From me…
I want to revive anything we have lost
Before it’s nothing left.
But I’m so far gone
And I can’t fix my lips
To let you in
Physically paralyzed
At how you will
View me…
I guess I’ll hold on from a distance

© 2015 Craig Watson

Incompatible

You’re drowning me
By any means
Issues
Sorrows
Insecurities
Things that aren’t even as bad as they seem
The misperception of your emotions
Prevents you from thinking logically
I LOVE you
And you KNOW it
But no matter what I do or say
You constantly fish…
For negativity
I can’t take it
Your burdens run thick
Like sap from a tree
Slowly gaining
Eventually concealing
Weighing down
Hardening…
Becoming almost impossible to pierce
Without shattering
You!
When we get along
Happiness is undeniably present
It shines brighter than the sun
And just like night and day
When we disagree…
You forget that there ever was a sun.
Uncertainty…
Runs deep in your veins
Constantly feeling attacked
Every word is an insult
Making it difficult for me to speak
Walking on egg shells
I’m at a loss for words
I lose desire to speak
Tension on the rise
Rage begins surfacing
My mind drifts from restriction
Now…
I lash out when I speak
Roles reverse
Now your feelings are hurt
And I become the agitator
But even in the midst
Of my so called harsh words
Degrading is something I’ll never be
I don’t tear you down
You just like to think things through and through
Until you convince yourself
That you’re being attacked
Abused…
That’s not me
It starts with you
But when you see red
There’s nothing I can do
Just know you’re drowning me in your sorrows
Makes me feel
Incompatible

© 2013 Craig Watson

Fear

Fear is foreign
When you are around
And now that I know and have you
My only fear in life
Is to lose you
Therefore…
I’d do anything to keep you
There’s no end
To the rage that would overcome me
In order to assure your wellbeing
There is no darkness too deep
Death holds no weight
For the depths I’d go for you
You have the core of my heart
You say the word
And I’ll see to it
That whatever it is
Gets done.
I’m infatuated
I desire to please you
You heighten every sense in my body
I feel in control
In every action I make
Until you look at me of course
Or touch me
Especially when you touch me
That control …
Is given to you
You control me
And I trust you with that power over me
A powerful woman
You’re the mastermind
Behind my actions
You rule me with everything you do
Compatible in every way
You make me feel invincible
Any task can be overcame
Any obstacle can be completed
As long as you’re with me
There is no fearing
Anything

© 2013 Craig Watson

Tease

I want it BADLY
I make it known
And you resist it.
You taunt me with your words
Insinuating you want it
You’re not afraid to show it
You speak on it with ease
As if you mapped it out in your head
And Me…
As thirsty as I am
Respond
Taking it a step further…
And stimulate you mentally
And you impassively…
Ignore me
No response
For days…
Leaving me feeling
Incorrigible
And out of nowhere
A Response
Only to satisfy your scandalous itch
And then once again…
Gone with the breeze.
You love the control
Yet you fear the reality…
You don’t want to feel guilt…
I don’t want the shame
But how can you not entertain these palpitations
Occurring in our most sensitive loins
The throbbing
The heavy heart beats
This passionate mental storm
Calling for a torrential rain
I know I own your thoughts
I want to make them my own
I want to enter your body
I want to taste your rain

© 2013 Craig Watson

A Man

You feel it
I conceal it
No proof it’s even there
But the feeling is so apparent
You can’t stray from the thought
It has taken control of you
I love you
I just don’t know how to explain it
Just…
Looking for the imperfect time
Because no time
Is ever a good one?
I don’t want to do this
I don’t want to hurt anyone
And that fact…
Stops me dead in my tracks
Disappointment is inevitable
Broken hearted
Prayers for strength
Because I feel I lack
The necessary courage
To speak
I’m weak…
So I continue to sit and wither away
Rotting from the inside
Pretending to be something I’m not
Whether it’s my happiness
Whether it’s me just being me
I’m not free…
Caged…
For the benefit of the smiles of others
And in the process I’m losing myself
Who am I?
I no longer know
All I know
Is I am a man
An imperfect man
I would like to think I’m supportive
But in the midst of supporting
My support
Is dwindling beneath me
A husband
A provider
A protector…
It’s said that a woman’s job
Is never done
But being a man that takes on so much
I can vouch that it’s the same for us
And I don’t even know who I am
I’m lost in a world of complacency
A set schedule
To do what’s required of me
And if I’m a second too late
The world falls off its axis
I’ve lost me
Jaded

© 2012 Craig Watson

Melancholy

Melancholy 

I woke up with excitement
High hopes…
Of seeing your beautiful face
Only to come to the realization
That you’re not here today
And you haven’t been for some time
Breathing just became a little harder
Another 1000 thoughts
My mind can’t help but to wander
Wander in places
I dread going
But I can’t deter my own thoughts
I miss you tremendously.
Tossing and turning
Both day and night
In the brief moments of sleep
I vision you here by my side
But it does no justice
Hence…
I wake up a little more depressed
I try to drink it off
But it just enhances the stress
My highs suddenly
Become my lows
A fast track
Back to reality
Left with a heavy heart
Missing you entirely

© 2012 Craig Watson

Danger Zone

Danger Zone

Erase these thoughts
Banish these thoughts
Because they…
Are no good for me
Temptation is haunting me
Making it hard for me to be around you
You’re untouchable
And you need to remain that way…
Because if I were to touch
I’m sure it would change everything
Your beauty becomes more mesmerizing
Every time that I look at you
When I feel our eyes are about to connect
I force myself
To look away
God forbid
I actually look into your eyes
I don’t know what will happen
The passion that may come over me.
I want you…
And I feel
The only way to do away with these feelings
These urges…
Is to have you!
But there’s a possibility that
I’ll never be able to
Dismiss you…
Is this
Self-destruction?
I want to believe your feeling the same way
But either way
The situation is flawed
All because we have a mutual friend

© 2012 Craig Watson